Well Fuck

Loki's hernia is back. Apparently it is an extremely rare occurrence, the first case the vet has ever seen of this happening.

So he needs the surgery again and the insurance won't cover it (pre-existing condition). The surgery carries all the same risks as last time too. I'm so scared I'm going to lose him. Kathie the vet is taking him down to Sam the Surgeon and will call me and let me know what I need to do.

We only just finished paying off the last lot on Tuesday, then I rang and proudly canceled the card, I just rang again and they won't uncancel it, so I'm not quite sure how this is going to work. I hope I can re-apply. I really wish I could go back in time to before the first time and tell myself all about pet insurance. Then I wouldn't be worried about the financial side and also wouldn't be feeling guilty for worrying about the financial side. We will of course do whatever it takes to get Loki healthy, it's just we can't come up with thousands of dollars on cue.

I'm really scared of losing Loki. Thank God my job pays well, hopefully I can work extra during the uni break.

I'm in such an anxious headspace, I think my plans for study will have to be shelved. I'll do housework and stay near the phone instead.

[Edit] To file under "Counting blessings" and "It could be worse": There was a woman waiting at the vet when I brought Loki in, her little 8 year old dog had been attacked by a bigger dog and his paw had been bitten off, they were changing the dressing and making sure he was infection free. Poor little thing. At least Loki is mostly intact.

So far so good..

Just got a call from Sam the Surgeon. He's going to do the operation now. It carries a little more risk than last time but he thinks he can get Loki through it. Depending on how it goes Loki will either go to the animal hospital or come home tonight to be watched over by us.

Sam said Loki is okay right now, he's not panicking and he's stable.

Sam is also only charging us $300. I'm not sure why it's so little but I'm grateful!

I love my Loki bear.

Puck is being very affectionate today.

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Today I was supposed to:

Go Shopping
Have breakfast
Pack away shopping
Do a lot of housework (this included mopping and scrubbing)
Make a few meals for later in the week
Read book for uni
Deal with washed clothes

Today I:

Went shopping
Had breakfast
Took Loki to the vet
Packed away shopping
Worried a lot
Made rum'n'raisin brownies in an attempt to stop worrying.

Ah well.

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Just a quick note. Loki came through okay, the surgeon has stapled Loki's tummy to his abdomen in the hopes it stops it happening again.

He is home and seems to be in pain (and disoriented and scared), but he will be okay.

We're breaking the new rule about having kittens in the bedroom to take care of him overnight.

Not completely out of the woods, but can see daylight :-)