The Good, the Bad and the boring.

[mstakenidentity]

I am ambivelant enough about work that I won't mind if my contract finishes or is extended, either is fine.

I still can't sleep a night through, but I'm getting better at only waking up once.

mc_shamo is sick, but I have not yet caught it.

I got in Lysistrata, I was originally cast as Kalonike, but there was the obligatory people-accepting-their-role-then-declining-later and I was bumped to Lysistrata in the ensuing re-shuffle. I'm excited and nervous, and though I've made cracks about it before, will probably get quite oversensitive about "sleeping with the director" jibes, just to warn you. Please don't make them.

I get to go to the gym less than I'd like, but when I'm there I realise how much fitter and stronger I am than this time last year, and think about how fit and strong I'll be this time next year if I keep it up.

I only seem toget to catch up with people in half hour blocks, but those half hours are very precious to me.

I'm busy, I'm working, I'm keeping a house under control, I'm playing with and feeding a kitten, I'm maintaining friendships and relationships, I'm constantly assessing feelings and avoiding depression traps. I feel like I'm drowning a lot of the time but when I look at it objectivley I'm doing ok.

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[realcdaae.livejournal.com]

I'm constantly assessing feelings and avoiding depression traps.

I still have to do that all the time. I've found one trick that's helped a little - when I notice that I'm sinking into depressed feelings I look at what I'm thinking about that's triggering them, and then consciously spend a few minutes finding something to think about that makes me feel good. Sometimes it's thinking of petting my parents' dogs, sometimes it's thinking about the things I like about the town I live in - just anything thoughts that lift my spirits a little, that create some good-feeling thoughts. Doesn't work when I'm really down, but it does help slow and sometimes even stop the descent.

[mstakenidentity.livejournal.com]

I find thinking about playing with the kitten helps (as does actually playing with the kitten). And I love thinking about the house I live in now when it's clean and the surfaces are clear and uncluttered. And I like planning food, whether it's a restaurant or cafe I want to go to, a meal i want to cook or a cookbook I want to look at. Food makes me happy. Eating out makes me feel decadent, eating at home when my partner has cooked makes me feel cared for and loved, eating at home when I cook makes me feel proud and relaxed as the actual act of cooking relaxes me and makes me happy.

Food is awesome.

Also, as surprised as I would have been for most of the last five years, jumping on the treadmil or doing weights helps. Endorphines, go figure.

[mstakenidentity.livejournal.com]

As you said, none of this works if I'm in the good ol' pit o despair, but it's all good for avoiding, slowing, or helping me climb out when I've made the first step.

[laurenmitchell.livejournal.com]

Eeee leading role!

[melbournian.livejournal.com]

It's nice to hear about people getting into Lysistrata. When is it on?

[mstakenidentity.livejournal.com]

For the Fringe, so late Sep early Oct, come and see it!

[clappamungus.livejournal.com]

I'm thinking of gymning this Monday night, if I'm well enough (I caught a bug in Qld. I told you that place is evil).

You up for it?

Oh, and congrats!

[mstakenidentity.livejournal.com]

I'm up for gym, you still interested?

[clappamungus.livejournal.com]

Gah, would you believe I'm a) sick and b) have to work a bit late tonight?? I will try to come next time - definitely still interested, just not up to it tonight. (I've let Kate know)

[mstakenidentity.livejournal.com]

Cool cool, I'm thinking Wednesday night at the moment. Let me know if you're better by then!