The Good, the Bad and the boring.

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I am ambivelant enough about work that I won't mind if my contract finishes or is extended, either is fine.

I still can't sleep a night through, but I'm getting better at only waking up once.

mc_shamo is sick, but I have not yet caught it.

I got in Lysistrata, I was originally cast as Kalonike, but there was the obligatory people-accepting-their-role-then-declining-later and I was bumped to Lysistrata in the ensuing re-shuffle. I'm excited and nervous, and though I've made cracks about it before, will probably get quite oversensitive about "sleeping with the director" jibes, just to warn you. Please don't make them.

I get to go to the gym less than I'd like, but when I'm there I realise how much fitter and stronger I am than this time last year, and think about how fit and strong I'll be this time next year if I keep it up.

I only seem toget to catch up with people in half hour blocks, but those half hours are very precious to me.

I'm busy, I'm working, I'm keeping a house under control, I'm playing with and feeding a kitten, I'm maintaining friendships and relationships, I'm constantly assessing feelings and avoiding depression traps. I feel like I'm drowning a lot of the time but when I look at it objectivley I'm doing ok.

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I find thinking about playing with the kitten helps (as does actually playing with the kitten). And I love thinking about the house I live in now when it's clean and the surfaces are clear and uncluttered. And I like planning food, whether it's a restaurant or cafe I want to go to, a meal i want to cook or a cookbook I want to look at. Food makes me happy. Eating out makes me feel decadent, eating at home when my partner has cooked makes me feel cared for and loved, eating at home when I cook makes me feel proud and relaxed as the actual act of cooking relaxes me and makes me happy.

Food is awesome.

Also, as surprised as I would have been for most of the last five years, jumping on the treadmil or doing weights helps. Endorphines, go figure.